I Should Have Screamed
I awaken to find
His lips and tongue
On places he had
No permission to touch,
No permission to see.
In shame I do not scream
Or fight, kicking and scratching,
I simply freeze.
Praying it’s not true,
Just a nightmare
That soon will end.
I look away,
My stomach heaves
At the sight of his lips on my skin.
Please God just make it stop!
Forever after I feel the fear,
And disgust,
And violation,
And I burn with hate
For that man and his actions.
And forever after
In self contempt I think
like a punch in the gut....it should never happen...it does
ReplyDeleteand it destroys lives....and turns hard in the pit of my stomach...
well written....
The shame is the perpetrator's, kiddo, not the child's, though I know it is normal for kids to carry it. We are trained not to scream, not to make "a fuss", trained to suppress our voices, our feelings. Powerful write. I hope you scream now, sometimes!
ReplyDeleteA tough subject to write about, horrible and hard to look at. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteI can't seem to understand why someone in such a situation would not scream. and a topic we should talk more about these days.
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